Addicted To Relationship Toxicity

Let’s be honest many would love to say all the time they are healed, free of toxic relationships, more aware of red flags and focused on themselves. Meanwhile in the day in the life of a messy ass addiction to toxicity many of us ignore red flags because we are addicted to the toxicity a guy or woman shows. I am just gonna put it out there, this is not for everyone so if it don’t apply let it fly and for those that know it does say hi. 👋🏽

Relationship Toxicity addiction looks like the unavailable man or woman being totally available in your illusion. Ignoring red flags by telling yourself you may just be over reacting, that he or she is different from the rest when in fact they are more like the rest then the person maybe aware of or wish to admit because now they are trying to be positive and optimistic about a love based on what they want it to be not how it is showing up. Relationship toxicity are those ignored arguments that you just can’t figure out why it’s not creating clarity, knowledge, peace and understanding but instead they progress his or her emotional fracture and rigidness toward a relationship jenga building upon an unstable foundation.

Many become obsessed with playing the cat and mouse game with a casper the friendly ghostly behavior like man or woman but desire validation in a committed union that inspires one to feel wanted, cared for, heard, and connected to. Relationship Addiction to toxicity makes you fall more in love with the confusion like if one signed up for a escape room relationship challenge. When the arguing about dumb shit makes you feel more attracted and you are aware or not aware that some how this relationship reminds you of a past toxic relationship so you unconsciously feel

like y’all are growing closer. Or you can do this crazy over differently. That conversation with your friends that you don’t know what it is about him or her but there is an increasing curiosity on how you can rescue him or her entangled in the thought that this is you making better relationship choices, besize you tell yourself it’s hard to find what You are looking for in a manor woman so you will unconsciously settle for what yoi once prayed to be released from to check your let go timeframe now to see if it has a no bullshit timer. Addiction to relationship toxicity is also the face of self sabotage, people pleasing, not setting boundaries, sweeping things under the rug, contradicting yourself, and acting like everything is ok when it’s not because you don’t want or feel comfortable with conflict. Therefore, castrating your voice to keep the peace, managing a one sided relationship, or neglecting information from your friends that will tell you the truth to avoid accountability and also seeing your toxicity and your role as well as addiction to it. In a perfect world maintaining healthy relationships focusing on ourself, avoiding red flags, and maintaining a balance between loving yourself and someone else without any defining moments to remind of you of responsibility around also going after what you want in life that makes you happy seems like a easy task. Yet you have to know the toxicity to understand what is relationship safety. Often times feeling unsafe is more normalized then feelings safe but often feeling safe over unsafe is spoken yet rarely understood, heightens caution, and actions to feel safe are not put into play through ones decisions.

Loving the toxicity is usually the main attraction that we ignore. Toxicity becomes the hashtag and a normalized self-worth that dysfunction is the most highlighted consistency in what is commonly confused as a thriving relationship, but not noticed as an obvious emotional obstruction. A persons relationship addiction to toxicity(RATT) should be called RATT because it is the snitch that exposes that you are attracting the same toxicity because you have lost the awareness around what is poison. Are complacent and comfortable with the familiar while questioning the unknown, and working what did not work, to repeat a dead battery that you spent years prior learning is a lemon, a dud, and another emotional trauma waiting to unfold. Thinking to yourself is it the toxicity for me! An emotional amusement park of scary rides and unpredictability with the same toxicity thinking sis where they do that at. SMDH. Then purchase the tickets. Doing the same thing but expecting different results, insanity. Jayz’s lyrics from Song cry A face of stone, was shocked on the other end of the phone Word back home is that you had a special friend So what was oh so special then? You have given away without gettin at me That's your fault, how many times you forgiven me? How was I to know that you was plain sick of me? I know the way a nigga livin was whack But you don't get a nigga back like that! Shit I'm a man with pride, you don't do shit like that You don't just pick up and leave and leave me sick like that You don't throw away what we had, just like that I was just fuckin them girls, I was gon' get right back They say you can't turn a bad girl good But once a good girl's goin bad, she's gone forever And more forever Shit I gotta live with the fact I did you wrong forever I can't see 'em comin down my eyes So I gotta make the song cry I know I seen 'em comin down your eyes But I gotta make the song cry

Signing out

Sheez I Am Powerful

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